Dear wifey - Shawshank Story

Dear Bunda,

Yesterday in your special day I miss to email you. In the morning we were discussing in the gtalk. Until evening in hospital my back pain so hard. Let just share something for today as a replacement for yesterday.

Let talk about movie, about The Shashank Redemption. It is considered as the best movie all time by many people. I will not make a poiler in case of you havent see the movie yet. But the general moral that want it to be delivered is about hope. When we have a hope never stop to act for that. Although it might be hard and nee so long time. The philosophy that is really applicable in human life.

In life human often easy to lost hope. Usually after facing a failure or even before make a start yet. When we can got everything without effort usually it will feel sour because lack of sence of fulfilment. For example When we want much money then we can get without any effort will sound great at the beginning. But we will realize that we will feel empty and even become more and more thirsty. One of real example is corruption. Seems like a great deal to be rich. But maybe in factual they will feel empty. Btw the example is little bit too heavy this time.

Let see to another side of the coin. Making a hope with a real effort. According to Maslow, the most important human need is not wealth but it is a selft actualization. This feeling can be gained mostly by achieving something. Ok hopefully this will not get you confused for now. In conclusion never lost hope when dreaking something. But we have to realize that hope might be need high effort and time. At the end all of the proccess will always give satisfaction to most inner part of us.

Dear Wifey, Say Love with Code

Dear Wifey,

This must be the uglist gift from a man to his wife. But believe that I put all of my effort to build this. I will enhance that as well. Btw you are my trigger to create many new things. Hopefully our startup or business idea will be nearby here. :-*

Happy birthday sweetheart wish u all the best and always have a blissful life. :-*

Dear wifey - Trance Story

Dear Bunda,

For this last one year actually most of time I just listen state of trance episodes from Armin van Buuren. What the mean of episode in here is every week armin will remix and compile several latest trance tracks from various DJ (including himself) into 90 minutes show. Every episode play usually more than 20 tracks. Woth so that much amount it difficult to remember which one is good track and which is just ordinary and which that I dont like. Oh ya, trance music also divided by vocal trance and just trance. Vocal trance means there will be a singer. Other than vocal trance whole remix will consist only electronic instrument plus sometime conventional instrument as well.

I haven't read about Armin so much. But compare with other star from for example rock music, Armin live style could be considered clean. No drugs no free sex life (I consider this because he has married with one daughter 1 year old that he mention often in his show). Even after succesful hit by often selected as a best DJ, he one time decided to finish his abandoned law degree in university. And really finish.

I actually doesn't mean to show a form of fanatism. But I can see a stromg consistency that is shown by Armin with releasing a new episodes everyweek. While for myself even sometime a hole happen whem releasing email to you.

Trance different with other genre many trance lover said trance music has soul. So in following years ahead whem we drive our own together maybe most time trance music will be played from car audio. But don't worry, trance is different with conventional electronic music who just noissy. Trance have melodies.

But now for the first time after sometime I am listening Just Feeling by Maroon 5 several time in a bus.

That's all some short sharing about trance for today.

PS: I love you

Dear wifey - Unproven Tips to Recover Mood

Dear Bunda,

This recent days I am in the full mood. I enjoy coding in office. I am happy coding "bebas" in home as well. Even not done yet I have make a progress for one of several my "to have done" motivation letters. In spare time I was so enthusiast reang books that I lend from library, books that I have, kindle or so many books in my lovely-but-note-so-lovely-as-you galaxy note. But I understand that mood always swinging up and down. Utilize properly when it is on top. And handle properly when it is down. Several things that I can suggest are playing imagination, refreshing and writing.

Playing imagination mean set your expected output and imagine detailly how it is. By having clear view about your output of target we can have some extra power to rerise our mood. Yes of course this theory is easier to talk but not so that easy to do. But I have do it. I always imagine how I feel, where I am, what I can accomplish when get some scholarship. Sometime this work well to boost my mood to write the application.

Refreshing is the act of to get refrehment. Refresh is clearing somethimlng stuck. The method is by doing something different than what wr usually did. Most common example is traveling. Hopefully your visit to Austria this weekend can give a full refreshment for you. Other example of refreshing could be watch movie, shoping :) and sport!!.

The third method is writing. Writing is thinking. Brain have so powerful capability in process so many thought in our head in very short time. Because of so many things that happen in our mind not all of those things can be process properly hit instead many things are just lost because not getting attention. Writing is the act how we can compose that so many random thoughts in our head to more structural way. From this definition we can see that random writing is good method for brainstorming. But beside that, writing also can make us more understand to ourself and oftenly can help to get rid a boring feeling and bad mood.

Anyways those 3 tips just appear instantly in my head while writing this letter. The writer is not responsible for any harms that happen by using this suggestion.

PS: I love you

Dear wifey - Love Expression

Dear Bunda,

Time moves fast like usual. But don't know why they move faster on weekend :p like you said on facebook. It always feels lovely to see you sleep. And I never stop to feel gratefull to have you as my wife.

Dear wifey, I just want to express that I really love you so much. Most of time it hard to define and measure what is love what is "really" means. I maybe never give you a gift surprise. I've never made beautiful things like you often create for me. Currently most tangble expresssion my love only by this email. But ironically it is also someday written and someday not. But believe me, with all of that defficiencies I always love you, I've never stop to feel so grateful with you. I've never wanted anyone else other than you.

Dear wifey, it has been one year since we get married. It has been some month since the first time you left to Germany. Some weeks since the second time you went back to Germany again. But in very short time Insya Allah we will meet again. Hopefully I can learn how to express my love more to you. Spent many sweet time together. Derping around Singapore, eating nice foods, wathing movies in cinema or wathing on the bed from laptop. Discussing and take an action for business idea ;). Writing together and reading together. Jogging and swimming. We can add any more things on the list. :) I cannot wait also to build a plan for our journey for the next mid year. That's gonna be a great journey. Hopefully we can plan properly together and have everything goes smooth.

Dear wifey, sleep tight sweet dream. I will call you when the dawn come in Ilmenau.

Wait for me in Frankfurt several months from now.

PS: I love you

Dear Wifey - Making Wealth

Dear Bunda,

Since a long time a go, I always want to build my own business. I don't like bureaucracy. That's why, I've never imagine to work as public servant Indonesia. I don't like hierarchy. But in opposite side I always love creativity, freedom of work, opportunity to learn many new things and assessments of performance based on merit and task delivery.

Luckily I was "trapped" in software engineering world. The place where creativity and exploration is granted so much. Creativity cannot live with bureaucracy and rigid hierarchy. In many software company even worker can use any dress code. For experienced developer with trusted deliverability even can work from anywhere they want. Apart from the condition a developer that work from employer, software developer have a unique characteristic. Software developer can be full independent if they want.

Quoting from Paul Graham book, wealth is unlimited. Different with entropy theory that is believed by many people, Graham offer different statement. Entropy theory in sort way is everything in this world have consistent amount. In term of wealth then there is consistent amount of wealth in this universe. Wealth cannot destroyed or created. Wealth only transferred. In easy way it means when on person become rich, there will be one rich person that bankrupt. Somehow this theory is intuitive because when we speak about economy, everything in this world will have effect to the other things. But Graham doesn't agree with that theory. He believe that we can create wealth. How? Making something, he said. Btw, Paul Graham is a LISP programmer. LISP is very old but very sophisticated programming language. Beside programmer, Graham also very successful entrepreneur who apply his knowledge into a real well sell product.

In past time people will make a something for iron or wood for creating wealth. They create and sell. They create wealth. In this modern world, most people work as employee. They don't create anything. They transfer their effort and got fix salary as a substitution. But actually there are still many option to create wealth beside work for other people. One of hottest option which is also close to us is creating software. That's why even though most people said process of creating software as software engineering, actually it will more proper to mention as software craftsmanship. Because software is half of engineering but half of art also.

I remember that actually I have sent you an email about this business topic as well. Consider this as the sequel. Speaking about specific idea, actually I still don't have any specific idea about what kind of craftsmanship that will we build to create our wealth hopefully. But at least we can collect some clue what kind of thing that we can create. First it must be relate to internet. Second maybe relate to data processing. Today is information era. We interact with information every time. Even corporation also consider information as an important thing. Let add another criteria later.

For the closing I want to make a statement. Making wealth is creating a product that is needed by people. If not needed yet we have to find a way to make them need it.

That's all my random tought for today.

PS: I love you

Dear wifey - A Writer

Dear Bunda,

I always like writing since a long time a go. I am easier to express myself through writing. That's why, I've never forced to write something, especially to write love email to you.

I cannot trace exactly when is I started this hoby. Since I was living with patuo in Jakarta from my 2nd grade to 4th grade of elementary school, I've started to love reading and writing. At that time I start to read magazine like bobo, kuncung and tabloid fantasi. I started to love sending some postcard to that magazine. I even sometime sent a letter to my mom in Jonggol. At that time we didn't have phone line. Handphone was still something we never imagine.

I still remember my formal writing that I've ever wrote. A short story. Because I like read Bobo magazine, somehow I like read a short story. On my sixt grade I wrote a short story for my school assignment. My first formal short story. I still remember the title. "Antara Jakarta dan Ottawa". This is the story about two childhood friend who meet again in adult time after so many years separated. They meet in Ottawa, Canada. Even since my 6th grade I had been so obsessed to go abroad. That short story was one of way of me to express that willing.

For that writing hoby, my mom one time give me a very special gift. A typewriter! Again, at that time computer is still not common. With that typewriter I wrote several stories and sometime a poem. I also tried to send some of my writing to magazine. But there was never any of them published yet. Maybe because I still not put my best effort yet. That typewriter accompanied me until about highschool. When the ribbon ink already run out, I usually buy new one to a bookstore. At that time the closest bookstore from my home is either in Gramedia Bogor, Gramedia Bekasi or Karisma in Lippo Cikarang. So sometime I dedicated to come to one of that place just to buy new ink ribbon for my typewriter. In emmergency, actually we can do some work around by pouring liquid ink to the ribbom. But this method is work only for temporary. The ribbon of my type writer was also special. It have two colors. Red and black. So we can type with red or black color. There are so many stories with this type writer. Maybe I will share again sometime later.

Like I always make a bullshit to you, I always one to publish my own writing either novel or a reliable technical book. Hopefully I can turn this bullshit to not bullshit anymore. I know you must be saying about nike shoes. :)

That's all for now.

PS: I love u